Last week I threw my back out and ended up on steroids. I avoid steroids like the plague normally but the pain was excruciating and in this case, steroids are da bomb!
The unfortunate side effect of steroids (for me at least) is that I crave chocolate and caffeine like a beast! It overtakes all rational thought and I live moment to moment wondering when I can have my next cup of coffee or my latest chocolate obsession – Reese’s PB Cup Dark Thins.
I try to tap into my soul’s guidance, thinking she knows I don’t need to fill my body up with this much caffeine and sugar but even she seems to be on Team Binge ALL THE CHOCOLATE.
It’s as if my inner guidance system has been hijacked.
Have you felt that lately?
Have you felt like separating animal instinct from intuition is harder than usual?
Your inner guidance system just can’t be reached or if it is speaking to you it’s saying
“OMG Why are you trying to do anything. This is all Bullshit! Nothing you are doing is working! Do you know what we need? A cookie!”
If you are feeling any of this (without steroids) I assure you that your intuition isn’t on the fritz. We are just moving through a period of re-ordering. Last year we all walked through an energetic process that showed us what needed to fall away.
Maybe it was relationships, work, or where you put your focus. You learned there were people, places, and events that no longer deserved your time. That upheaval causes inner chaos.
Now that we have moved into a new year – a year geared toward both inner and outer harmony – everything has to settle back down and find its place. Which leaves the fear brain confused and grasping for control.
It may still be fighting the change in you that has already started to manifest and it’s doing all it can to wrestle controls from your soul. In some cases, it may look to soothe itself with substances or old behaviors.
My recommendation is to find a middle ground if that’s the case. Remember the fear brain, when powered up, is showing you that a part of you is afraid. Fear just needs to be met with love and compassion.
So how can you meet yourself with love and compassion right now?
Whether your cravings or base instincts are being triggered by steroids or something “in the air” release the self-judgment and find the middle path.
In my case I lay out 4 Reese’s PB Cup Dark Thins each morning and tell my inner goblin she can gobble them whenever she wants but once they are done, they are done. And once the steroids are finished the 4 cups go away.
That’s a lot of sugar but anything less would feel like deprivation to my little steroid-fueled creature and I know these cravings will pass.
This energetic season will pass as well. So what can you allow yourself within a limit that would in fact create more space for all your parts to learn to work together?