We are in the process of buying and selling a home. Because the closing date was delayed, our two closings and subsequent move will be sandwiched between three speaking gigs over the course of the next 10 days.
There are some people that can naturally shrug there shoulders in situations like these and say “You can only do what you can do.” Sadly I was not blessed with that que sera sera gene.
I easily forget the Divine is in control and my ego goes into overdrive when there is alot to do and “not enough time to do it.”
I make lists. I make every moment count. I am hyper-organized. I bark orders at my loved ones who foolishly cannot see the brilliance in my micro-management. Essentially I squeeze all the joy from life until my soul is shriveled with exhaustion and if left un-checked I will soon be found curled in the fetal position sucking wine through a straw.
(Except I just started my fall cleanse so all I can sip through a straw are those f$#&!ng protein shakes.)
And its times like these when God sends me a miracle. This week it was in the form of…
A call from the school nurse telling me my son just threw up in the hallway and can I please pick him up from school.
You may not see the miracle in that call so let me walk you through it.
There was no time for my son to be sick.
There was no time for me to wash down every surface he touched with Clorox wipes every hour so that the rest of us don’t get sick.
There was no time to stay home with him, holding him, knowing half the reason he got sick is because he is a little overwhelmed with all this change.
There was no time so I finally had to let go of control and surrender to the Divine all my struggle and all my deadlines. “Making it work” became impossible so I gave up. I surrendered. God sent me a stomach flu so I would finally let Her help me.
And so here I sit. Writing to you while my son sleeps. Not packing a box, or changing our address, or figuring out what I’m going to wear to Monday’s speaking gig because Divine has that under control. And as soon as my son wakes up I’m going to give him a cuddle because he’s 10 and I’m not sure he’s going to let me do this much longer.
As I started to write this post I remembered the dress at the dry cleaners will work perfect for Monday. I also got a text from my husband telling me he is taking next week off to finish any packing and cleaning. All that stuff I was worried about is being taken care of.
I forgot Divine had my back. If I had remembered that sooner life would have been easier but She didn’t want me to suffer any longer so she sent me a stomach flu to remind me I’m not in this alone.
If something has shown up in your world that you absolutely do not have time for maybe Divine is just giving you a little nudge to let her assist.